KNOWINGLY STEPPING IN "IT"

April 3, 2019

I had just come out of a meditative yoga class; my system was calm and tranquil as I drove to a meeting.  I parked the car in the only space available which positioned me tightly against a wall. As I squeezed out of my door and grabbed all the things I needed, my glass water bottle went flying out of my hand and shattered.  Sad. Breath.  "Okay," I said to myself, "I am handling too much at once...noted." Then I stepped back through the glass, and a piece of the glass came up around the soles, thru the side of my shoe and sliced my foot deeply.  Grrrrr.

 

Now, I can look at this several ways. I knew that the glass was there.  Why did I step back without carefully looking?   Did I feel protected cause I had on a shoe? Perhaps.  Do I think I can walk on glass? Hmmm, no(maybe?).  Blind trust while engaging with glass?!  Oiy. WTF was I thinking?  Was I discerning my circumstances?  No.  "Head in the clouds," feels accurate here. 
  
Let's go deeper into this.  One, I said to myself "I am handling too much at once" that is so true.  I am juggling many projects, responsibilities and being a Virgo moon I do this well.   Two, "positioned tightly against the wall," hmmm.  This is something.  I was uncomfortable getting out of the car, why did I settle for that parking spot when I knew I needed more space?  Three, "knowingly stepping in it"...a part of me does feel like I can do anything and I am flesh and blood, so clearly, I was not present in the moment and instead more concerned with where I was going.

 

 

Bottom line, I was not listening to my discomfort getting out of the car, I kept plowing through willing my way to "do" what needs to get done.  My being is demanding me to notice each breath, thought, feeling, surrounding space, etc.  as a reflection of who I am and what I am saying I want now so that I can create my vision. If I don't meet the energies, its response to my current velocity is immediate. BAM! STEPPING IN IT. 

 

 

THIS IS A VERY EXCITING MOMENT.

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